susah tauk sebenernya buat ngelakuin semua itu. berusaha pura-pura ga pernah suka sama lo, berpura-pura ga pernah sayang sama lo.. dan berpura-pura ga pernah ada apa-apa. lo tau ga sih sakit tau ga  begini.. lo ga ngerasain sih jadi gue, lo cowo jadi mungkin lo pikir hal kaya gini tuh sepele..tapi ga buat gue yang terlanjur pernah punya rasa.

lo kira gampang buat buat gue ngambil keputusan kaya gini?!     gue pengen marah sama lo tapi gue ga bisa, gue pengen bisa sama-sama elo tapi ga bisa juga, gue pengen ngelupain semuanya tapi susah,.. gue pengen teriak... " GUE KECEWA sama lo!!"

 gue pengen nangis... 

gue dibilang cengeng dan lebay...ga papa.

gue bisa trima sekalipun orang bilang gue bodoh...

tapi gue ga trima kalo apa yang pernah lo bilang ke gue,yang sempet bkin gue melayang,ternyata cuma bohong....!

gue kecewa...

 lo mau tau seberapa besar kecewanya gue sama lo??!

sebesar sayang gue ke elo.

lo mau tau sebesar apa sayang gue ke elo??!

...

oke..2 step buat ngebuang jauh-jauh elo dari otak dan kehidupan gue..selesai! :)
saatnya gue membenahi diri..bukan saatnya lagi buat gue menye-menye,lebay, dan berlebihan..

Just because I don't say anything,
Doesn't mean I don't like you.
I open my mouth and I try and i try
But no words came out.

Without 40 oz. of social skills
I'm just an ass in the crack of humanity.
I'm just a huge manitee.
A huge manitee.

And besides you're probably holding hands
With some skinny, pretty girl that likes to
Talk about bands and
All I wana do is ride bikes with you
And stay up late and watch cartoons.

Duck Tales, shirt tails, Talespin, Sailor Moon, GI Joe, Robotech, Ron Jeremy, Schmoo.

I wanna watch cartons with you.
Josie and the Pussycats and Scooby Do,
I want you to watch cartoons with me.
He-man, Voltron and Hong-Kong-Fui

I tried to ask you to your face
But no words came out.
I put on my hood and walked away,
That doosn't mean I don't like you.

And besides your probably holding hands
With some skinny, pretty girl that likes to
Talk about bands and
All I wanna do is ride bikes with you,
And stay up late and maybe spoon.

Just becase I dont say anything
Doesn't mean I dont like you.
No...
I opened my mouth and i tried and i tried.

And besides you're probably holding hands
With some skiny, pretty girl that likes to
Talk about bands and
All I wanna do is ride bikes with you.
And stay up late and watch cartoons.

I'm just your average Thundercats ho.

                                                                      the moldy peaches-nothing came out...




lagu ini rasanya nusuk, pas banget ngena dihati gue.  mungkin agak lebay, tapi sumpah gue pengen nangis saat denger lagu ini.
apalagi yang pas " just because i don't say anything,doesn't mean i don't like you. no...i opened my mouth and i tried  "
lo pasti juga pernah kan ngerasain, dimana sebuah lagu cocok banget buat ngungkapin apa yang sedang lo rasakan saat itu.
dan dari tadi, walopun gue replay buat yang kesekian kalinya..tetep easy listening.ga bosen gue.
gue mulai ngenal the moldy peaches pas gue nonton film 'juno'. berawal dari 'anyone else but you' nya mereka. gue ngerasan kejujuran di lagu mereka berdua . dan gue mulai mencari-cari mereka, ibaratnya gue adalah seekor anjing pelacak, dan mereka adalah tulang yang jadi inceran gue.
oh my... gue ga tau lagi gimana caranya meluapkan perasaan gue saat ini.. maybe, i need someone to listen me. tapi gue ga pernah tau siapa yang mau dengerin keluh kesah -ga -penting milikgue ini..hahaha..maksa.
I sound so pathetic is not it???
yeah,whatever...

bukan cuma seorang saja yg pernah ngatain gue anak kecil...  dia dan dia.. mereka.

mereka tau apa tentang gue?? mereka belom " ngenal" gue sepenuhnya, dan berani-beraninya bilang gue anak kecil..